Monday, October 22, 2012

Beautiful <3

“You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, when you meet them you think, 'Not bad. They’re okay.' And then you get to know them and… and their face just sort of becomes them. Like their personality’s written all over it. And they just turn into something so… beautiful--" Nathan, you are the most beautiful man I have ever met. You've made me a better person, and you've helped me grow. You've opened my eyes to new possibilities, and encouraged me when I doubted myself. Made me believe I was beautiful when I hated what I saw in the mirror. Your kisses, your smile, the warmth of arms- have healed me, kept me safe, have been my sanctuary when I felt like I was falling apart.
You are absolutely the best and most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me.
I love you Nathan Dwayne Juno. Happy anniversary <3

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Changes--

So. I have one more chance at making things better at home, or I have to leave.

But right now things are normal.
For now.

So today Nathan and I got to see each other after my long ad stressful weekend, And I swear I felt that stress melt away from the moment I saw his smile.

On the way home I was looking at bar tending schools in california and one was in mountain view/ San Jose.
I randomly said out loud "Nathan, lets move to mountain view"
He replied with "we'd have to find jobs first, but we could do that. I like mountain view"
Maybe he was humoring me. Maybe he wasn't thinking about seriously. Hell, I don't think even I was thinking about it seriously then, but you know what? It really makes me wonder if he actually has thought that we could have a futur together at some point in our lives.
Now I can't stop looking at apartments.
Moving right now isn't ideal with the job situation and stuff, but maybe sometime next year, maybe we can c:

And that, my friends, has given me hope for my own future life.

I love you Nathan. With everything I could ever give you.
/J