Changes--

So. I have one more chance at making things better at home, or I have to leave.

But right now things are normal.
For now.

So today Nathan and I got to see each other after my long ad stressful weekend, And I swear I felt that stress melt away from the moment I saw his smile.

On the way home I was looking at bar tending schools in california and one was in mountain view/ San Jose.
I randomly said out loud "Nathan, lets move to mountain view"
He replied with "we'd have to find jobs first, but we could do that. I like mountain view"
Maybe he was humoring me. Maybe he wasn't thinking about seriously. Hell, I don't think even I was thinking about it seriously then, but you know what? It really makes me wonder if he actually has thought that we could have a futur together at some point in our lives.
Now I can't stop looking at apartments.
Moving right now isn't ideal with the job situation and stuff, but maybe sometime next year, maybe we can c:

And that, my friends, has given me hope for my own future life.

I love you Nathan. With everything I could ever give you.
/J