<3

Every day I feel a little closer to you. To be honest. I think I can picture myself getting married to you one day. I know marriage is the farthest thing from your mind, but I'm wondering if you've ever thought of some future with me. Not marriage, or kids. But. Just a simple future, together, me and you. I'm afraid to ask. I love you, but I'm afraid to let you know just how much I really do. I fear that of I let that one bit out, you'll turn around and leave. Prove me wrong. Prove to me that you're with me for real. That your serious. That this isn't temporary. Ncan you do that for me? Can you put my mind at ease?

Things right now are a bit crazy. I think these things, and get a little clingy, or too affectionate. It's been a while since I've been in a relationship that has lasted this long, and first time I've been in one with someone, so perfect, like you. By the time we pass our first year i'll relax, but right now I'll either clinger tighter or try to push you away. Don't let me push you away. Please. I'm just scared. I'm scared that I'll fall so hard for you, that I'll love you so much, that if you leave... The ground will be ripped from under my feet and the air would be sucked from my lungs.

I'm not trying to be over dramatic. I just have a certain way of explaining things.

I love you, and you might never know just how much I do... <3
/J

Ps: I'm sorry if this post seems jumbled up.